Misery

Last night was, without doubt, one of the worst nights of my life.. maybe only equalled by the couple of months I was having numerous eye surgeries.

I was sick to my stomach all day yesterday and had a nagging headache, which by bedtime (and by bedtime, I mean 6:45pm) was a full-blown migraine. I was up every hour throwing up, unable to even keep down a sip of water. It got so bad that at one point while I was heaving over the toilet, my body actually gave out and I peed myself as I stood there throwing up with my head throbbing from the migraine. I started shaking and crying and cleaned myself off and collapsed back into bed. Another hour later, I woke up covered from head to toe in sweat, and shaking with chills.

My entire body has just had enough and last night was pure misery. I'm 14 1/2 weeks along and I'm still losing weight from my pre-pregnancy weight. I'm down 10 lbs. and while morning sickness lets up some days, overall it's more violent than before. I shouldn't have gained much/any weight at this point.. but I also shouldn't still be losing it. My next appointment is Monday and I'll speak to her about how sick I still am and the fact I'm still dropping weight pretty considerably. This has been incredibly rough up to this point.. I'm already sick of being pregnant and of how much stress it's putting on my body. Oddly though, mentally I still feel incredibly good. This is the worst I've felt in my entire life over an extended period of time, but mentally I feel great.