I need you to be addicted to me

There's a man at work I'm quite taken with, moreso than I have been with someone in person in years. It's to the point of being painful and unignorable. After recent events and unrealistic expectations, I'm being fairly guarded and cautious. I'm also trying to learn to trust my gut instinct. The first impression I had of this person wasn't a particularly good one, and I can't shake that. As much as I enjoy his company and believe we have a great deal in common, there's something in the pit of my stomach constantly telling me not to get involved or pursue it. I'm unsure if it's just me trying to protect myself after the bad decisions that lead me to situations I was uncomfortable with in Arkansas or if I really am picking up on something not quite right about this man. It's difficult feeling such a strong connection to someone and in a way hoping more will come of it, but at the same time, having this unshakeable feeling of distrust. I guess time will tell. As for now, I'm being friendly enough but keeping my distance. I don't need the complications a relationship breeds. It'd be nice if I could put him out of mind even for an hour. This would be the fun part of it wasn't so unsettling.