So freakin bored

So tired and no energy to go do anything, and sick of sitting around. I'm annoyed I didn't stay at my job longer and just accept rides to and from work. This is brutal. I can't stand just sitting around trying to invent shit to do to kill time. This feels so pointless. It's just over a week now until Sean gets here but even still I have no idea what I'll do to pass the days until he arrives. I hate not working, I hate having all this time on my hands. I hate being bored. I hate having no real purpose in life and no outlet. I do best when I'm busy and don't have time to sit and dwell on my thoughts. This SUCKS. I love working a full time job and having things to do and people to see and projects keeping me busy. Not having any of that just eats away at me. I want a busy, fulfilled life. Ughh.. even after Sean goes I still have ANOTHER entire month of this. Sure I'll be packing and getting my place ready to move but?? Like.. why? I'll just find myself in the exact same position back in Arizona.. sitting around, half looking for a job, no life.. no friends. Why is it so difficult for me to attain the things I really want? Is it always going to be like this? This insane empty feeling?