Honestly

Hahahahahaha omg. So I leave for Phoenix (and then onto Florida) in 6.5 hours. I haven't packed yet. I haven't sorted out my lease yet, haven't cleaned, haven't done laundry, haven't filed my taxes NOTHING. You know why? Because I spent the entire fucking day speaking to Dustin. Oh man. Truly like. I'm just gone. I've NEVER in all my life been able to speak to a guy like the way he and I speak to each other. We laugh at the same jokes.. we fucking TELL the same jokes. Just.. I can't get enough of him. I miss him even when we're speaking. Does that make sense at all? I MISS him when he's right there. I've never been able to be so completely open and honest and myself and laughy and jokey and fucky and retarded and sweet and sentimental and have someone understand ALL of those and be the EXACT same way. Literally like, we say the same shit at the same time. He GETS IT. Jane, you'll understand that. He GETS IT.

I know he won't sleep tonight. He'll lie in bed and think about the things we said today. He'll replay our conversations in his head. We'll both sit up all night doing this. I won't sleep. I won't be able to switch my brain off from today. I told him this on the phone. Told him all of this. He said the same thing. There's no way I'll ever be able to get to sleep tonight. Not after that. Man.. we have the EXACT same shitty fucky gay sense of humor and like, way of responding to things. Honestly.. it's like talking to Jane. Oh man.. I should stop here. This could carry on some time. AHHHHHH GONNA MISS THE FUCK OUT OF HIM WHEN IN FLORIDA. Hahah damnit. I need to like, go to Arkansas.