I leave back to Arizona tomorrow for a few weeks. I'm only bringing some of my clothes. That's gonna be weird to be back in Phoenix and Flag, and not actually live there, not have any of my belongings there. So I guess this is my last post for awhile. Once again, I won't have internet access there. Ehh.. it doesn't much matter. No one reads this anyway. And Jane has Michael there.

I don't know how I feel thinking of leaving tomorrow. It doesn't feel right.. it doesn't feel like I'm leaving here to return to "home" but it also doesn't feel like this is home. I mean, I guess it does.. but it still somehow seems temporary?

I wonder how we'll cope being apart from each other for a month. How are we both gonna feel after these past few weeks together? How am I gonna react being back around my family and in Flag. I don't know..?? I'm not gonna sit here worrying or stressing over it, because that's not gonna change anything. Whatever happens, happens. We said from day one we weren't gonna plan anything.. that we'd just see how it went.

I love him.. and I miss him already. I don't know.