6 Weeks

In 2 days Kieran will be 6 weeks old, and that's a huge milestone. Everyone always says the first 6 weeks are the most difficult.. and they have been. I expected it to be hard, but not like this. I love him more than I thought possible, but the past month and a half has taken everything out of me. He's been colicky and fussy and inconsolable pretty much all but 3 days since he was born. Only in the past 3 days has he started to settle down a little, and I think that may be because I've gone from nursing him to putting him on soy formula. I think he has a milk allergy that's been causing him pain.

I'd intended to write more but I'm suddenly exhausted...

6 weeks and it feels like an entire lifetime. I can't imagine him not being here now. It's the hardest thing I've ever done but is also the most rewarding. Just when I think I can't deal with it anymore, he'll smile (if only because of gas) and make it all worth it. <3