Negative

Ok so I thought I might be pregnant after a bunch of symptoms from the past week. So I bought a test, peed on the stick the way it said, and the result came back negative. Which.. I guess is good? The last thing I need right now is a baby, but?? I can't help but really want one now. It'd be the worst possible timing, and as fucked up as it sounds.. I'd love to see the messed up human being Dustin and I would've made. The thought of having his baby seems really appealing right this very moment, and it makes me wish I was pregnant.

Probably also like the thought of it right now because I'm moving to Florida in like, 23 days.. and I know if I were pregnant, my life on the beach would become my baby's upbringing. They'd be raised around Jane, Barbara, and Stevie.. Jerald, Uncle Bob, Dad, and everyone else. And well.. it sounds so irresponsible, and I know it, but I can't help but really enjoy the thought of it. :-\

I want Dustin's baby. Man..

So I can't blame all the weight I've put on recently on a baby, damnit. I guess I need to stop like, eatin so damn much.