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Randomness.. not intelligent enough right now to think about writing this eloquently.
Jane and Michael are off to North Carolina until I think Aug. 6.. the day before I arrive there. I already miss her, but know I'll be seein her soon.
Loved Scott, Shelley, and Natalia visiting. I wish Scott and I had grown up together more.. we get along like best friends even though we only see each other once every year or two. Wish I could like, exchange my sister for him.
Man, I love Dustin. Even when I feel like total crap for NO reason, within a few minutes of speaking to him it's like.. life is great. We get along so well.. so easily, and so much fun. We still have yet to argue and have been speaking for 6 months, and have been together for 3. I told him yesterday about taking the pregnancy test.. aww.. poor guy.. he's like, "have you slept with someone? :(" and truly was worried I'd been with someone else. He must not realize how much I love him and how I have no desire for like, anyone else. He wasn't accusative at all, he was genuinely scared I'd had sex with someone else. Man.. that makes me love him even more if that's possible. It's nice to be reminded that he's as fucked in the head as I am. I just wanna hold him and kiss him and just like.. see him again.
It's such a relief knowing I'm going to Florida. Not that I expect everything to be perfect there. It won't be. There's no such thing as perfect, there's only making the best of what you've got. Of course my mind is still gonna act up occasionally, and of course there are gonna be rough times.. but I've never been happier anywhere else, and above all, I'll have the ability to get around on my own, which really is my freedom and peace of mind. And going to live there isn't at the cost of losing Dustin. He might not be able to go right away, but we've talked about how serious he is to eventually make it there on a more permanent basis. I just know I don't want anyone else.
Went into town yesterday, SUCH an incapable fucker. I really should be removed from society. Bb understands.
Haha, bought blank t-shirts and some letter stenciling.. "I <3 virgins"
I need to buy my ticket to Florida today.
Jane and Michael are off to North Carolina until I think Aug. 6.. the day before I arrive there. I already miss her, but know I'll be seein her soon.
Loved Scott, Shelley, and Natalia visiting. I wish Scott and I had grown up together more.. we get along like best friends even though we only see each other once every year or two. Wish I could like, exchange my sister for him.
Man, I love Dustin. Even when I feel like total crap for NO reason, within a few minutes of speaking to him it's like.. life is great. We get along so well.. so easily, and so much fun. We still have yet to argue and have been speaking for 6 months, and have been together for 3. I told him yesterday about taking the pregnancy test.. aww.. poor guy.. he's like, "have you slept with someone? :(" and truly was worried I'd been with someone else. He must not realize how much I love him and how I have no desire for like, anyone else. He wasn't accusative at all, he was genuinely scared I'd had sex with someone else. Man.. that makes me love him even more if that's possible. It's nice to be reminded that he's as fucked in the head as I am. I just wanna hold him and kiss him and just like.. see him again.
It's such a relief knowing I'm going to Florida. Not that I expect everything to be perfect there. It won't be. There's no such thing as perfect, there's only making the best of what you've got. Of course my mind is still gonna act up occasionally, and of course there are gonna be rough times.. but I've never been happier anywhere else, and above all, I'll have the ability to get around on my own, which really is my freedom and peace of mind. And going to live there isn't at the cost of losing Dustin. He might not be able to go right away, but we've talked about how serious he is to eventually make it there on a more permanent basis. I just know I don't want anyone else.
Went into town yesterday, SUCH an incapable fucker. I really should be removed from society. Bb understands.
Haha, bought blank t-shirts and some letter stenciling.. "I <3 virgins"
I need to buy my ticket to Florida today.
posted by Heather at 10:51 AM
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