Seems I have a weakness I didn't know about

They just left.. I didn't say anything because Shay was here and I thought it'd be awkward. I love them. I don't know why, but I'm feeling strangely lonely even though I've been around friends and family all day. As soon as I'm alone in the apartment feelings of loneliness begin to set in. I want someone who's right for me. I want my life to carry on from here. I feel like I'm halfway to where I want to be, but the crucial person is missing. I want someone to pine for me. I need that closeness. I've always been fairly stubborn in changing my ways to possibly attract someone, but I'm thinking it may be good for me. I'm willing to change slightly, for the right person. I'm ready to be the best version of me I can be, and in that, find someone who loves and accepts me and all of my quirks. I want to be held and comforted and know that I mean everything to somone I can feel the same way about. Being this close to Jeph is getting in the way of me wanting to look for someone I have the possibility of a real life with.

I want to give everything of myself to someone who will return it.