Well I got everything I need.

Man.. just spoke to Dustin on the phone for probably an hour and a half. You know what's weird.. I miss him more when we're talking than I do when we're apart. It's like.. when we're apart and I'm just getting on with daily things, I can almost convince myself that I'm ok and fairly content. But then we speak, and I'm reminded why I love him so much. Because we just get along so well. Because it's so enjoyable speaking to him. We sit there joking and laughing and it's just like.. yeah THIS is what happiness is, and so it makes me miss him even though he's right there. And we don't wallow in it, not TOO much. It's more just like.. this is so great.. this is what I miss. This is why I love you and why I can't wait to see you again, because we can talk like this. Because I love his company so much. I love being around him. We understand each other so well.

Damnit, two freakin months? How the hell. Like.. hurry up July. Is it July yet?

...How bout now?

In all seriousness though, I told him he felt like my family. He really does. He doesn't even feel like someone I'm dating or a boyfriend.. or even like some new exciting hollow love. He feels like.. like my family and my foundation. It feels like my home is there in Arkansas with him and Marley, and that that's our family and that it's always been that way. Yeah, that's a good way of describing it. Like we've always been together, and my home is there with him, and I'm away in Arizona on business and I'll be returning home to him and our family and our life.

It doesn't even feel like I'm going there to start something new. It feels like I'm returning to what I've always known and loved.