The person that I thought I was..

...Is something that I don't think is coming true.

I don't know what I want. How does anyone ever know what they want? What makes people happy and how do they find those things? How do you know if you enjoy something because you genuinely do, or because you've been told you're supposed to?

How does anyone know what they want, and how do they want it badly enough to work to attain it? Doesn't it change for others as it does for me? I want different things different hours of different days. And at the same time I have no idea what really pleases me.

It all comes and goes for me and I haven't found something lasting. Something that brings me enough happiness that I'm as certain as someone can be, that I want to strive to maintain it for any length of time.

How does it last for everyone else?

Drip. Drip. Drip.