Fuctupdedness

This is a short post entirely for my own benefit. Loved speaking to Dustin earlier about things. Alice in Wonderland and comfort.. sitting in the hallway, cartoons, Tom & Jerry, innocence, truth and realness, what matters, The Jungle Book, childhood, '< pound u', wholesomeness, understanding, and connection.

Me [3:16 PM]: they'd just put it down to me being me
Dustin [3:16 PM]: they'd just chalk it up to me being weird
Dustin [3:16 PM]: hahaha
Me [3:16 PM]: hahah yeah

and that's how it always is with us.

Me: [3:35 PM]: ok i'm gonna stop trying to explain it, cos i know i don't have to, cos i know you get it
Dustin [3:35 PM]: I love that, I do know and I do get it and it's so... amazing... that you do too. How the hell? I was supposed to be alone... there's not supposed to be someone else like me


Man, I wish we'd gotten to speak more on the phone tonight. Only had about 20 minutes before the cell died. I wish.. I wish I was certain he understood my mood earlier. I was jokingly being kind of assy. I hope he didn't take it seriously. I hope he knows how happy I am to be with him. We're so fucking much alike it's insane.