I am I am I said I'm not myself
I accomplished one thing today. One thing, and one thing only. I called one of the drug labs here and asked if they did HIV tests. She said nowhere in town would do one without a doctor's recommendation. So I found a GP, called and registered as a new patient, and made an appointment for a general checkup. Told the receptionist I wanted a general exam, I wanted to get on birth control, I wanted a doctor's note to get the HIV test, and that I needed my hand to be examined because it was really paining me. Haha like.. if I were able to use my hand, I wouldn't be needin the birth control and AIDS test.
Told Dustin I was seriouly considering joining a gym when I got to Arkansas. I'm twelve pounds heavier than I was this time one year ago, and about sixteen heavier than I am at my average low. Not my low low, but a maintainable low. I'm sick of feeling the added weight. That, and any time I've ever worked out on a regular basis, I've felt so much better both physically and mentally. Being active like that really seems to keep my head much clearer. I know I'm not gonna be doing a hell of a lot there the first month or so anyway, so I might as well take the opportunity to try to get in better shape.
We seem to be pretty active actually.. We were taking walks pretty much every day, and he likes to take the horses out once a week or so, although we won't have the opportunity to do that again until the weather cools down some. But even so, I'd like to have something that I go do that's all mine. I want to try to actually settle there and have a few hobbies of my own that don't involve him. And when I do find work, hopefully I'll be able to make a few friends. I like Mike and Cassandra, but they're his friends. I wouldn't mind some all my own. Haha.. I always hesitated making friends when I was with Sean, because I was so completely embarrassed by him. Well.. that, and I knew as soon as he'd met them, they'd become the latest character in his threesome fantasy. So I pretty much avoided making friends altogether with the exception of Melanie and Rachael. Mel's married and pregnant (and married and pregnant people are never much fun) and Rachael moved to San Francisco about 6 months back.
But I'd love to make friends there. Like, people whose company I actually enjoy. Not just someone to waste 3 hours and $25 with once every 3 weeks. Yeah maybe I'll get a part time job fairly soon after getting there just for the social aspect.
Man so like, tomorrow's supposed to be my last day here in the apartment. I did absolutely nothing on it today. Just never had the energy.
Wait, no. I was productive today. I drank my way through a 6 pack. Woo.
Told Dustin I was seriouly considering joining a gym when I got to Arkansas. I'm twelve pounds heavier than I was this time one year ago, and about sixteen heavier than I am at my average low. Not my low low, but a maintainable low. I'm sick of feeling the added weight. That, and any time I've ever worked out on a regular basis, I've felt so much better both physically and mentally. Being active like that really seems to keep my head much clearer. I know I'm not gonna be doing a hell of a lot there the first month or so anyway, so I might as well take the opportunity to try to get in better shape.
We seem to be pretty active actually.. We were taking walks pretty much every day, and he likes to take the horses out once a week or so, although we won't have the opportunity to do that again until the weather cools down some. But even so, I'd like to have something that I go do that's all mine. I want to try to actually settle there and have a few hobbies of my own that don't involve him. And when I do find work, hopefully I'll be able to make a few friends. I like Mike and Cassandra, but they're his friends. I wouldn't mind some all my own. Haha.. I always hesitated making friends when I was with Sean, because I was so completely embarrassed by him. Well.. that, and I knew as soon as he'd met them, they'd become the latest character in his threesome fantasy. So I pretty much avoided making friends altogether with the exception of Melanie and Rachael. Mel's married and pregnant (and married and pregnant people are never much fun) and Rachael moved to San Francisco about 6 months back.
But I'd love to make friends there. Like, people whose company I actually enjoy. Not just someone to waste 3 hours and $25 with once every 3 weeks. Yeah maybe I'll get a part time job fairly soon after getting there just for the social aspect.
Man so like, tomorrow's supposed to be my last day here in the apartment. I did absolutely nothing on it today. Just never had the energy.
Wait, no. I was productive today. I drank my way through a 6 pack. Woo.
posted by Heather at 11:58 PM
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