My head won't leave my head alone

Fine.. piece of crap. Here's a VERY short version.

Spoke to Dustin earlier. Ehh.. sick of dealing with interruptions. Want to be with him already and glad I will be in 4 days. Tired of packing and everything that goes along with it. Glad all this shit is over with soon.

Girls are still here. Driving me crazy.

Sat on the deck all day.

Going to Phoenix tomorrow.

Had to cancel doctor appointment. Can't get birth control right now.

I'm so fat. Hate how disgusting it makes me feel. Have to do something about it.

Doubting EVERYTHING.