A day like today
An update--
Taken from an e-mail I sent Dustin:
Hahah.. we all just got back from seeing Madagascar. Now, i'm seriously not big on going to see movies. I always expect too much and then am disapopinted, that.. and I usually wind up sittin next to the screaming baby or the guy that smells like onions, etc etc. But man, that movie... Hahahah.. it's so wrong. It's like Aladdin -- meant much more for adults than for kids. I didn't expect anything from it, and wound up REALLY enjoying it.
More on today from another e-mail to him:
Total freakin hectic day. My family's got problems. We got in a fight in the middle of Wal-Mart (all 6 of us), how white trashy <3 Haha.. we all went to the park and were playing tag.. Kenzie got me, and pulled my arms behind my back in the same way a cop would arrest someone. And we walk up to my mom like that and I say, "It's like being back in Florida." Yeah.. she wasn't amused. :D Then we took turns laying on our stomachs on the swings and twisting the chains as much as they'd wind up, and letting them go really quickly and spinning around then hopping off and stumbling around. Uhh, that was my mom and I.. not my nieces ;P
So THEN just about 2 hours ago.. ok, this is the short version. Sean missed his flight into Phoenix, and had to take another one stopping in Colorado (and also had to pay an extra $400 on top of the $1,000 he'd already spent on the ticket), lost his luggage, and the guy he was supposed to be staying with in Phoenix called him and said he was unable to let Sean stay there with him. So he got in touch with my mom and told her of the situation. He begged her not to tell me any of this, because he knows the position he'd be putting me in with Dustin. But I felt bad. I mean, I really feel sorry for him. So I called him immediately and told him I'd overheard the conversation and offered to help.
After a lot of crying on both our parts and a lot of help from my family (James mostly), we all agreed he could stay down at my sister and James' house in Phoenix tonight since they're up here with us at my mom's. James hates him, and so won't let him be around Kenzie (that's another story entirely.) But since they're all gonna be up here until Monday morning, they're kindly letting him stay down there for the next 2 nights.
Sean's not sure if he's unable to stay with the friend of his for just a night or two, or if he's got nowhere to stay at all for the entire week.. So I offered that once Holly, James, and the girls returned to Phoenix, if he couldn't find somewhere else to go, he could go to my apartment for the remainder of the week. I said I'd do what I could to help, but that I didn't want to see him. Told him I felt bad enough already at the thought of putting Dustin through all of this. I hate to see Sean completely stranded, but I was in tears thinking Dustin would be hurt by it. Sean understood how out of the way everyone was going to help him out. He even understood and apologized for me being involved in any way. We were both still crying.. he thanked me for being a friend even after everything, and we said goodbye.
I was sick to my stomach at the thought of having to tell Dustin and for putting him through this. I hate this drama, and I just.. I hated thinking I was putting him in this position. I didn't have long to mull it over because he called not even 10 minutes after I got off the phone with Sean. I told him everything and his response was basically like, "Thank you for telling me. I love you, I trust you, and I know I have nothing to worry about. It's fine. :)" I mean.. I'm not even gonna see Sean even if he'll have to stay at my now abandoned apartment.
Dustin is really.. my whole heart. I don't ever want to jeopardize our relationship, but I also couldn't completely abandon the person I just gave the last 5 years of my life to. And Dustin knows that.. he knows there's no other reason for me helping than to try to do what's right. I'm so thankful for how understanding he is with everything. He could so easily be fed up of this and decide it's too much to take, and that's half what I expected. I love him so so much. He's so great.. so perfect for me. I just want to be with him again and not be dealing with all of this.
And.. that's the last bit of news. I WILL be with him again, a week from today. We couldn't take the distance anymore, so instead of waiting until mid-July for him to drive out here to get me.. my mom's gonna drive me halfway there, to Amarillo, where we'll meet up with him and return to Little Rock. One week. I'll stay for a month and then have to return to Arizona once more for 4 weeks before going back to Arkansas (hopefully) for good.
I just want to be with him again.
Taken from an e-mail I sent Dustin:
Hahah.. we all just got back from seeing Madagascar. Now, i'm seriously not big on going to see movies. I always expect too much and then am disapopinted, that.. and I usually wind up sittin next to the screaming baby or the guy that smells like onions, etc etc. But man, that movie... Hahahah.. it's so wrong. It's like Aladdin -- meant much more for adults than for kids. I didn't expect anything from it, and wound up REALLY enjoying it.
More on today from another e-mail to him:
Total freakin hectic day. My family's got problems. We got in a fight in the middle of Wal-Mart (all 6 of us), how white trashy <3 Haha.. we all went to the park and were playing tag.. Kenzie got me, and pulled my arms behind my back in the same way a cop would arrest someone. And we walk up to my mom like that and I say, "It's like being back in Florida." Yeah.. she wasn't amused. :D Then we took turns laying on our stomachs on the swings and twisting the chains as much as they'd wind up, and letting them go really quickly and spinning around then hopping off and stumbling around. Uhh, that was my mom and I.. not my nieces ;P
So THEN just about 2 hours ago.. ok, this is the short version. Sean missed his flight into Phoenix, and had to take another one stopping in Colorado (and also had to pay an extra $400 on top of the $1,000 he'd already spent on the ticket), lost his luggage, and the guy he was supposed to be staying with in Phoenix called him and said he was unable to let Sean stay there with him. So he got in touch with my mom and told her of the situation. He begged her not to tell me any of this, because he knows the position he'd be putting me in with Dustin. But I felt bad. I mean, I really feel sorry for him. So I called him immediately and told him I'd overheard the conversation and offered to help.
After a lot of crying on both our parts and a lot of help from my family (James mostly), we all agreed he could stay down at my sister and James' house in Phoenix tonight since they're up here with us at my mom's. James hates him, and so won't let him be around Kenzie (that's another story entirely.) But since they're all gonna be up here until Monday morning, they're kindly letting him stay down there for the next 2 nights.
Sean's not sure if he's unable to stay with the friend of his for just a night or two, or if he's got nowhere to stay at all for the entire week.. So I offered that once Holly, James, and the girls returned to Phoenix, if he couldn't find somewhere else to go, he could go to my apartment for the remainder of the week. I said I'd do what I could to help, but that I didn't want to see him. Told him I felt bad enough already at the thought of putting Dustin through all of this. I hate to see Sean completely stranded, but I was in tears thinking Dustin would be hurt by it. Sean understood how out of the way everyone was going to help him out. He even understood and apologized for me being involved in any way. We were both still crying.. he thanked me for being a friend even after everything, and we said goodbye.
I was sick to my stomach at the thought of having to tell Dustin and for putting him through this. I hate this drama, and I just.. I hated thinking I was putting him in this position. I didn't have long to mull it over because he called not even 10 minutes after I got off the phone with Sean. I told him everything and his response was basically like, "Thank you for telling me. I love you, I trust you, and I know I have nothing to worry about. It's fine. :)" I mean.. I'm not even gonna see Sean even if he'll have to stay at my now abandoned apartment.
Dustin is really.. my whole heart. I don't ever want to jeopardize our relationship, but I also couldn't completely abandon the person I just gave the last 5 years of my life to. And Dustin knows that.. he knows there's no other reason for me helping than to try to do what's right. I'm so thankful for how understanding he is with everything. He could so easily be fed up of this and decide it's too much to take, and that's half what I expected. I love him so so much. He's so great.. so perfect for me. I just want to be with him again and not be dealing with all of this.
And.. that's the last bit of news. I WILL be with him again, a week from today. We couldn't take the distance anymore, so instead of waiting until mid-July for him to drive out here to get me.. my mom's gonna drive me halfway there, to Amarillo, where we'll meet up with him and return to Little Rock. One week. I'll stay for a month and then have to return to Arizona once more for 4 weeks before going back to Arkansas (hopefully) for good.
I just want to be with him again.
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