Get the feeling again

Sean arrived into Flag today. I wound up seeing him. I didn't get done sorting my apartment out and have time to leave before he got there. It was actually reassuring in a way. There was nothing there. Not a single ounce of me had any desire to be back together with him. It was the opposite really.. I sat there looking at him wondering how I ever spent 5 years with him in the first place.

It's weird knowing he's 5 miles away at my apartment, and that I could go see him if I wanted.. and times in the past I'd have given anything for him to be this near.. and now he is and all I want is Dustin. That's frustrating as hell having someone you don't want so near, and having the one person you do want 1200 miles away.

Well.. I don't have long to wait to see Dustin again. 5 days. FIVE DAYS. I want to run up to him when I see him. Literally step out of the car and run and jump into his arms :D Not in some like, "wowowow love you" serious way.. just like, AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYY I'M WITH YOU AGAIN, LIFE IS GOOD!!!!!!! And then I wanna kiss him.. arrrrrr. Man.. haha, I miss him.

Amarillo.. I get to see him again in Amarillo. Texas might actually have some redeeming quality. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FIVE DAYS HURRY UP.

Oh yeah.. ran into a chick today from high school. She used to be all like, intellectual, and is now working at Wal-Mart. We joked about being worthless, unmarried assholes. Got her number and e-mail and we said we might try to meet up Thursday just to catch up on things before I leave for Arkansas. It's good to know others from my graduating class are just as unsuccessful as myself. Made my day actually.