And baby if you promise me, we can build our world together

Haha.. I've been neglecting this the past few days. I've had too much to do to sit down and write out anything meaningful. Not like that usually stops me, but even still.

Alright.. so tomorrow is moving day. TOMORROW. I see Dustin in 24 hours in Amarillo. Wow.. I'm pretty much entirely done packing.. the only thing I have left to do is load everything up in the car, and we'll do that tonight. Getting up at like 4:00 AM tomorrow morning and planning to be on the road by 5. What the fuck? I'm moving to Arkansas to live with Dustin TOMORROW. Like, in 13 hours.

Yesterday, for the first time, there was a good 30 minute period where it hit he and I both what was actually about to happen. It hit me first, and I said.. We're moving in together after having only spent 2 weeks together in person. We've never even had a disagreement or an argument.. and we're moving in together after 2 weeks.

And it hit.. and we both sat there kinda like.. uhh hahahha WTF are we doin, and why is no one trying to stop us. Maybe this isn't the best idea? But it is. Alright it sounds kinda.. stupid/naive/insane?? But when we're together it's just.. I don't know man. I'm so happy. It's like some insane shit out of a movie.

Obviously I hope it lasts, and I'm going to live with him intending for it to, but at the same time.. if it doesn't.. I want to enjoy this as much as I can. If it totally sucked after a few months?? Well.. it was fun in the process. I mean, we've only spent 2 weeks together and honestly it was the best 2 weeks of my life. More memories in that time than in my whole life.

If it doesn't work out.. well.. then I'll go on to Florida like I'd originally planned to anyway. I don't know.. it just doesn't feel like I have anything to lose by doing this. I love that man so much. You'd think the fact that I'm moving to Arkansas tomorrow would mean he and I would be talking about like, serious stuff and how it'll be and what we'll do and where things will go.. but it's just not like that. I can't imagine it ever will be with us, which is why I love him so much. It's never serious or like.. important.. it's just us being us and enjoying each others' company and making the most of that moment. We've just joked around and laughed all day about totally pointless things. Like everything else is an afterthought. Oh man.. 24 hours until I see him again. AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Haha.. I wonder if it'll hit us that like.. maybe there were some issues we should've discussed before we moved in together? Like.. maybe we should've been slightly more serious about some things and talked about stuff? Haha, are we about to be smacked upside the head with reality and all these things we never talked about because we were too busy fuckin around being idiots? Only one way to find out :D

Said to him we must be the two biggest pessimists on the planet.. we're movin in together tomorrow and we're both still sittin here going, "well when this fails." We both gotta stop that.. need to enjoy what we have and just see how it goes. We're either two of the luckiest people, or two of the biggest naive idiots that lived. Probably equal parts of both.

HAHAHHA WTF AM I DOIN OMG. BB OMG!!! HAHHA UHHHH......

soooooooo fuckin retarded insane naive asshole