don't panic

it's my last night living in Arizona. i have to get up in exactly 6 hours.. and will be leaving in about 7 and a half. i'm really doing this. i'm.. really doing this. i'm moving out of Arizona for the first time in all my life. away from my mom, and from Kenzie, and from everything i've ever known. ..i..

we've been together 5 weeks today.. and i've spent 2 weeks total in his presence.... and i leave everything i've known for him in less than 8 hours...

this is real. i.. don't.. i don't.. know.

this isn't visiting sean for 4 months in england.. this is.. packing up all my life.. all my things.. and moving. this is moving. to be with him. i'm moving to be with him. i've packed up everything and am moving in with someone i've spent two weeks with.. ...? i.. ??..

i don't doubt this decision.. it's just suddenly real. i just am sad to leave here.. to leave kenzie and my mom.. and to be starting something new. it's so uncertain. it's all unfamiliar and new and we're still constantly learning new things about each other. i'm diving in head first and hoping for the best. i.. i don't know what to say. this is happening.

don't work yourself up like this.. don't do this to yourself. it'll be ok.