Getting better all the time

Awww.. he's smiling and laughing for real now, not just because he's about to let one. No more colick (THANK GOD).. I'm really able to appreciate him now and enjoy him and see him learn and play. :)

6 Weeks

In 2 days Kieran will be 6 weeks old, and that's a huge milestone. Everyone always says the first 6 weeks are the most difficult.. and they have been. I expected it to be hard, but not like this. I love him more than I thought possible, but the past month and a half has taken everything out of me. He's been colicky and fussy and inconsolable pretty much all but 3 days since he was born. Only in the past 3 days has he started to settle down a little, and I think that may be because I've gone from nursing him to putting him on soy formula. I think he has a milk allergy that's been causing him pain.

I'd intended to write more but I'm suddenly exhausted...

6 weeks and it feels like an entire lifetime. I can't imagine him not being here now. It's the hardest thing I've ever done but is also the most rewarding. Just when I think I can't deal with it anymore, he'll smile (if only because of gas) and make it all worth it. <3

Our Song

There's such a sad love
Deep in your eyes.
A kind of pale jewel
Open and closed
Within your eyes.
I'll place the sky
Within your eyes.

There's such a fooled heart
Beatin' so fast
In search of new dreams.
A love that will last
Within your heart.
I'll place the moon
Within your heart.

As the pain sweeps through
Makes no sense for you.
Every thrill is gone.
Wasn't too much fun at all
But I'll be there for you
As the world falls down.

Falling.
Falling down.
Falling in love.

I'll paint you mornings of gold.
I'll spin you Valentine evenings.
Though we're strangers 'til now
We're choosing the path
Between the stars.
I'll leave my love
Between the stars.

As the pain sweeps through
Makes no sense for you.
Every thrill is gone.
Wasn't too much fun at all
But I'll be there for you
As the world falls down.