2006

Hmm.. a list of crap from this past year..
Started the year working for daData, living in Florida
Major depression for months on end
Sean visiting Clearwater
My mom visiting Clearwater and going parasailing
Driving cross country with 7 cats and a car FULL of my stuff back to Arizona
Arriving back in Flagstaff, setting up an apartment, and going to work at NEBS
Sean's mom dying suddenly
Going back to England for a month for the first time in more than 2 years
Both Dustin and Brian announcing their engagements

Honestly one of the worst years I've had in adulthood. Very few good moments.. Things have improved since returning "home." The first half of the year was marked by extreme depression. Things got a bit better through July and August, and then quickly went downhill again after Bridie's death. The last 3 months of this year have been uneventful and mundane.

Some of the songs I will associate with 2006...
Coldplay - Talk
Ringside - Trixie
Ringside - Talk To Me
Editors - Munich
Kings of Convenience - I'd Rather Dance With You
Spoon - I Summon You
Spoon - Everything Hits At Once
Spoon - I Turn My Camera On
The Kooks - Ooh La
The Magic Numbers - Take A Chance
Thievery Corporation - The Heart's A Lonely Hunter
Belle & Sebastian - Space Boy Dream
Dubtribe Sound System - Tomorrow In Your Eyes
Keane - Cyrstal Ball
New Young Pony Club - Ice Cream
Madonna - Get Together
Peaches - Fuck The Pain Away
Darkel - At The End Of The Sky
Fergie - London Bridge
Joy Division - Love Will Tear Us Apart
Kaiser Chiefs - I Predict A Riot
Kasabian - Shoot The Runner
Kelis - I'm Bossy
Lily Allen - Smile
Lily Allen - LDN
Nelly Furtado - Promiscuous
Terry Wogan - The Floral Dance
The Smiths - This Charming Man
Arctic Monkeys - I Bet You Look Good On The Dancefloor
Bajofondo Tango Club - Forma
David Bowie - Sound And Vision
Letu Stuke - Mjesto Za Dvoje
Royksopp - What Else Is There
Sondre Lerche - Two Way Monologue
Editors - All Sparks
Hot Chip - Boy From School
Wolfmother - Woman
DJ Shadow - Mutual Slump
DJ Shadow - Six Days
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Dani California
...and I'm sure many others that don't come to mind right now.

I'm not sad to say goodbye to 2006. I hope the coming year will be much improved.

Death

Massive depression again just like always.. took off work today and because it's the day after a Holiday, it counts as 2 absences for one day off. I didn't have a choice though. I was crying all morning and unable to barely even speak. Have slept all day and done nothing else. I feel hopeless and sad and ugly and fat and just.. worthless.

I'm getting bad at this

Man for so long I was really posting pretty much daily, aside from like, the year I had no computer.. but even then I was keeping up with it more than I am now. I work all day and then come home and have dinner at like 11pm and then watch some Netflix movie and crash. Not much worth writing about. Sean's been visiting for the past 10 days or so and just left at like 3 this morning. I don't know.. everything is mundane right now. Like, not even in the mood for Christmas (which for me is REALLY unusual) even though there's 4 inches of snow on the ground and 4-5 more expected overnight. I just feel..???? Uninterested. I get home so late at night noone's around to speak to and before I go to work, again noone's around because they're all busy doing interesting things or at work or something. Still annoyed same way as I was in the last post.

Oh just.. fuck off

Tired and headachey and longest day EVER. Have some research I promised a chick here that works for the city that I'd do that is fucking near IMPOSSIBLE to compile and stressing me out. Any day now she should be calling me to check how I've been coming along with it and blah.. have NOTHING. Spend hours looking for information that just isn't available. My job today was ass, my apartment is decent but just, blah. I have no clean clothes and I hate em all anyway. I feel fat and nasty and uncertain. Bb's not around.. Sean is coming for a visit and just.. UGHHHHH.. I feel stressed out. No boyfriend, a job that is like.. only tolerable... and just.... asldfjk alsidj fiaej lis djfl JUST FUCK OFF. (except bb)